I’m appreciative. I was born in Nuwakot. My childhood was also spent in the village environment of Nuwakot. The green surroundings, the chirping of birds, and the village life full of selflessness were the factors that formed my initial consciousness. The love of my relatives, the warm support of my neighbors and the mountain climate have taught me the beauty of life.

As childhood progressed, as we passed through adolescence, new desires began to arise in my heart. The desire to do something new began to grow in me, the desire to make my own identity began to take shape. It was around this desire that I had a desire to dream a new dream. With a sense of certainty and uncertainty, I left the village and came to Kathmandu, like thousands of young people come to this city; Carrying dreams, carrying desires. I also came to Kathmandu with a dream to shape my dreams.

Shortly after coming to Kathmandu, I had a different experience, learned a different lesson in life. When he came to Kathmandu, he got a job selling soap, brush and manjan in a bag. It was a compulsion to sustain the economy. In a village where I didn’t know anyone, I used to feel embarrassed and anguished when I went to the door of the village to sell my goods. Responsibility taught me to put aside pain and move on. That experience made me understand the real meaning of living and struggle at a young age. He could also understand the irregular rhythm of life.

After coming to the capital, I was fascinated by the world of media and art. Of course, I had this desire since I was in the village. When I was a student in Nuwakot, I was interested in drama, poetry and songs. They used to listen to FM radios. I was a young woman who was interested in light music. It’s an old habit of mine to lose light music at night.

After coming to Kathmandu, the cinema was filled with famous faces, news related to cinema and the glitter of the colorful world. The lives of the characters on screen seemed strange to me. I decided to go into that field. I wanted to be an artist. I also thought that I would make a career in the field of communication.

During this time, I got the opportunity to work in Khoj Online TV. It was a really fun and learning time. There was an opportunity to meet new people like every day. The experience of grabbing the mic and asking questions, telling the news in my own voice filled me with a different confidence. I still feel that the media sector is the voice of the voiceless.

I’m also a guy who likes to joke around with my colleagues. Even when I am busy with work, I talk with a smile. I am a pure person of heart.

I felt energized every day when I walked into the studio of Khoj Online TV. But the inside story of that time was different — there was no income in this area. After all, it was not easy to sustain life in other sectors. Everyone knows the story of Kathmandu’s inflation. I was a student, and gradually the financial stress started increasing. The bigger the dream, the narrower the pocket to hold it. The responsibilities of the house, worries about the future and the desire to live a strong life compelled me to choose the path of employment. At the same time, there was only one thought in my mind that if I went abroad, this financial confusion would be removed, I could also give some comfort to the family. Later, I started thinking that I could do something in the media and art sector by returning to the country. It was this feeling that eventually led me to go to Japan.

I had dreamt of going to Japan while studying higher education in Kathmandu. It was not easy to study away from home and family. The empty room, the stress of renting a room, the hassle of cooking one’s own food and the lack of family support all made the mind heavy. Still, the hope of a bright future made every difficulty seem easy. Finally, after a long wait, I was able to land on Japanese soil.

After coming to Japan, life took a whole new turn. The language is different, the culture is different and the environment is completely unfamiliar. The first days were very confusing. It was hard to understand simple things. With the introduction of the students, the compulsion to work was also added. The daily routine of meditative reading in the classroom in the morning, followed by working for hours in the shop or elsewhere, stabilized both body and mind. Fatigue and lack of sleep changed the habit. Balancing the balance between study and work became more and more challenging day by day.

The most painful moment was when I was unable to send it home because I did not have money in my hands. There was a kind of bitterness in my heart when I couldn’t help my family. Physically, I was away from my family, but my heart was in the country. It felt like my mind was swimming in the hills of this country.

In the moments of loneliness, the memories of friends deepened. Childhood friends who grew up together in the village of Nuwakot, colleagues I met during my studies in Kathmandu, and countless well-wishers who have come to know me at different stages of my life, I feel like I am standing in front of my eyes.

I remember the moments of sitting in the tea shop with dear friends for hours, sometimes sharing laughter and petty quarrels. All those memories make me happy. These good hearts are far away from me, but I feel like they are always around me.

I listen to a lot of songs these nights –

I’m leaving your city and going far away…

I feel like this song was written for me. I feel the depth of the song and the essence of the music in every song.

That loneliness, that desolation expressed in the Kathmandu crowd still lingers in a corner of my heart. In my loneliness, I am always looking forward to music. Sometimes, even in the silence of the night, I want to listen to my mother’s voice, to speak a few words to my father. I see my mother in my dreams, I see my friends.

The current situation is more focused on careers. And yet, I have always been blessed by my parents.

Even the sorrows did not discourage me. Instead, each sorrow grew stronger from within. From the village life in Nuwakot to the artistry, journalism, employment and study journey in Kathmandu to Japan, I have learned a lot in life.

The media and news learned time management from the environment. Even the hardships of life taught patience and endurance. Even today, I am moving forward with the same dedication for my future and the smile of my family.

I believe that the dream with which I have come so far will definitely come true someday. I have not lost hope that today’s struggle will lead me to success in the future. I understand that even a dream without difficulty is incomplete. I am determined to turn my dream into reality.

Looking back today, it seems that the journey was not easy, but this journey made me appreciate the struggle. Difficulties tried to disturb me, but they also taught me to stand boldly. Perhaps this is the law of life. The higher the climb, the higher the peak awaits us. That’s why I take each of my days as a lesson in learning, thinking that the best way to move on is rather than complain. With that belief, I have been able to overcome the small obstacles of daily life.

There are innumerable sisters and brothers who have come abroad with dreams like me, who are performing their duties day and night. I want to tell them that loneliness, exhaustion and these pains are also temporary. The real feeling of living is through struggle. The fruits of perseverance are permanent. Distance from family does not diminish love, intimacy becomes deeper.

In conclusion, I would like to say that my journey of struggle is not over yet. It’s just a small step on a long road. With every step, I have seen my dream come true more closely. And that dream has inspired me to wake up every morning with new energy.